On Feeling Inadequate

"Well, on uh, Fake Draw Screen Right I uh, pick up the linebacker if he's comin, 'less of course it's Butkus, then I simply notify the quarterback to send for a preacher." -Brian Piccolo (Brian's Song, my favorite movie!)

Second blog this week that I need a preface, so my mother does not worry about me. I am not currently feeling inadequate, in fact I am very confident in myself at the moment. However, there have been many times that I have and I'm sure in the future, probably in the next week when I face finals, I might.

I know the quote doesn't really scream inadequacy but as a result of watching Brian's Song so many times I've thought a lot about this movie and learned a lot of lessons. In the clip with this quote, Piccolo gets yelled at because he is making this joke and not doing his job, and while it was a poor excuse for not getting the linebacker, in Piccolo's defense Dick Butkus was one of the scariest linebackers of his time(at least that's what I get from my research). While we shouldn't back down from situation in which we face difficult challenges, if I were to get plowed but Butkus over and over again I might start to feel inadequate. So sometimes you just have to let him through, so the injury is only to your ego, face the facts and make a joke to get you through that rough moment.

A FUN SPORT

A very competitive enviroment

A team that has won since the creation of BYU Intramural Kickball and wins at every other intramural so much the have a sponsor who gives them free pizza and shirts


I have been playing Intramural kickball and it has been tons of fun, however somehow our ward team played well enough to be the bottom ranked team in the upper division of the tournament, so we faced teams that handpicked every player and consisted of half of the BYU track team, and amazingly we got to play 4 games in the double elimination tournament. However, I've had the Brian Piccolo/Dick Butkus problem and I had to put away some of my competitive nature and just realize that they were better than us and to not get upset when we didn't win and to not let the game injure me physically or mentally. This situation doesn't just happen in sports.


There will be people we can't stop, there will always be someone who can score higher than me on a test/have a higher GPA, someone who can cook/bake better than me, is more attractive, is better at art, friendlier, has a better voice, is more athletic but that doesn't mean I'm a dumb, mean, ugly, unartistic, unfit, tone deaf, terrible cook. It just means that there are people that are more skilled in one area, maybe it comes more naturally to them, maybe they spend more time practicing and I just have to remember that while they may be better at something than I am that doesn't mean they are better than me and I should not compare myself. Now this is not an easy task, and it was one that I face a lot when I moved up to Provo because there are a lot of amazingly talented people here and I felt like I just wasn't as good. There were even some people that I met and it seemed like everything that I thought I was good at they were better and that becomes rather disheartening. However, I've decided its ok that i'm not great at any one thing yet, and I'm fine with just being good at a variety of things.