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I know that this post is kind of everywhere and if it were an english paper I would fail because there is no order to it whatsoever...and because I used the word whatsoever. But that's why I studied Neuroscience, took advanced writing in the summer so I would have to write as little as possible and I'm engaged so clearly I'm not thinking straight because no completely sane person gets married.

So I always swore I would not being one of those girls that was unofficially engaged or that picked out their ring. But growing up I also thought I wanted to marry a blonde guy and be a ballerina. Turns out I had no idea what I wanted

James and I started dating in the middle of march, and it kind of just happened. We didn't ever go on an offical first date or have a dtr, we just went from hanging out because our apartments would watch movies together to spending every free moment together. And our relationship continued in a similar fashion. It went unspoken, although I'm pretty sure we both knew we wanted to marry each other by June. We did decide early on that we didn't want to move too fast (a guy in my ward got engaged after 3 weeks and was married within two months of really meeting the girl...fast) and so we were going to enjoy the summer just dating. Well the summer ended.

James didn't want to pick out the ring by himself and we decided to go to a custom ring place and have it made. Since we're having a short engagement we needed to start planning before the ring was finished. I also needed to get time off of work, hence a short unofficial engagement.

We figured it would only be like a week and a half. Well the ring took longer than expected because it was made wrong the first time. I really like two toned rings so the designs on the cathedral are in rose gold but the jeweler made it in white gold the first time.

I'm not one for surprises or anticipation (I still can't sleep the night before Christmas, and I've known about Santa for some time... I'm 23) so knowing that I was just waiting for it to be finished was killer. We also decided we wouldn't tell anybody (so more like make it public) until I had a ring. Do you know how hard it is to not tell people that you're marrying you best friend, especially in Provo where EVERYBODY is on your case about getting married.

Anyway start of 'proposal'. Last week we bought 2 suits for James and got them tailored and they told us they would be ready on the 21 and I was perfectly fine because I would have my ring by then. Well I was not ok because I didn't have my ring and I didn't think it was fair that he got his suits before I got my ring. We went to pick up his suits and I was grumpy to say the least. So far out this engagement I had only got an invading visit to a doctor, just so you don't think I'm a TERRIBLE human being I also had an ear ache and was stressing out. I was ranting the whole time we were in the car and I even started to cry when we got home partly because I hate my contacts and they have been burning for the past couple days. When we got home from the store I decided to take a nap so maybe I would feel better and it worked. James told me he had to go to a special lecture for his Spanish class and I was to consumed with my grumpiness to even question the fact that he put on his nice jeans and a polo (which he rarely wears, he's a tshirt type of guy) to go to an evening lecture. I planned on meeting him on campus when he was done because I needed to deposit some checks and so he texted me that he was out and I could come meet him. He also asked me to look and see if the new trees had been put in his backyard so he could call Chuck(his landlord) and let him know. This made me a little upset because I had seen the trees the day before and I was with him so I was irritated with how unobservant he was and so I quickly responded that the trees were there. I took my time gathering up my stuff to leave and he texted me to see if I had left yet, right as I was ready walk out the door. So I started to call him when his roommates girlfriend walked in and said that James was waiting outside for me. By then I figured it out because he had told me he was on campus. When I walked out he could see that I was still slightly upset and so he just gave me hug and asked me if I would marry him, to which I responded "That's a clown question bro" (very much in line with our relationship, we're kind of sports fanatics, and that's such a classic response from Bryce Harper) He was planning on getting on one knee but it just didn't work out, and I'm glad he didn't. I got over my grumps quickly.

He also got me chocolate and flowers because on one of our walks we came to the conclusion that he had never bought me chocolate although we ate 3 big bags of peanut m&ms in 2 months and flowers are always nice.

I'm SOOOO excited. James is an incredible man and has a wonderful family that I'm looking forward to being a part of. I just called the temple and we are getting sealed on Tuesday, November 20 @ 11:15. :) That's less than two months and since I'm terrible at waiting I'm glad it's so soon.